Anonymous asked: you said in your last ask that you deal with depression and anxiety sometimes. i just wondered if there are certain things you do to help you stay calm and happy, and help you forget about things? it's something i'm struggling with at the moment. thankyou x
well the simple answer is try to inform people around you when it happens, don’t try to force the feelings away, but simply carry on doing whatever you are doing because stop doing things will just make it harder when you finally feel strong enough to get out of your depressed state.
i also run. that’s just one of those specific things that sometimes (not always) helps a lot.
Anonymous asked: It feels and sounds silly but the self hatred i have for myself has grown stronger with age to the point where i feel like my life is meaningless. The way society perpetuates the concept of being loved,admired and beautiful has fucked up my perception and understanding of myself. It feels as if the way people treat you is the reality of what you really are and it sickens me. I know your the last person who has this issue but you give such great advice. i would like to hear your suggestions!
idk why you say im the last person to have these problems, being somewhat normative pretty doesn’t mean you doesn’t fight with issues about your appearance. i every day get both loved and hated for looking the way i look, as if im nothing deeper and as if i choose to look this way. and that i should be held responsible and there for hated for the possible followers i probably have because my appearance.
i dont think there is a way of who someone “really is”. everyone is so many different people so i think it’s really irrelevant these days to be “myself”. i’m just trying to live a life i think is fun and calm because being in a calm environment is really important for me.
since i put a lot of effort in my work, if im at periods of time am really lonely i try to see the great sides in that, it simply give me more time to work so then im just fuck off world im fine on my own (instead of starting to hate myself about not having too many people around that i love etc).
but i am really sad at times. im big on depressions and everyday anxiety, but im just trying to find ways of living with that instead of trying to kill those feelings.
update: sorry weird post with of an on weird grammar. these are simply really huge questions i think about often and been thinking abour for so many years that i might have an idea about how things works in my head and then my way of reasoning about this might be hard to follow. if u get me. ughhhhh. sozzz
Anonymous asked: How are you weird about haircuts?
i dont want hair to be to much of a.. haircut? like asymmetric and too like straight? i dont like really obviously straightened hair in photos. i prefer long, curly, fluffy and anything that has it’s own little life and i like shaved heads in photos. and then i kind of like 40’s 50’s hair. i dont really like bangs (in photos weirdly enough because i think it’s soooo pretty irl). but it’s not that definite.
nylonsuperstar asked: how do you pick who models for your photography?
well, it’s something i think a lot about and simply ripping my hair off in frustration sometimes. i can have deadlines etc and then i dont have too much choice.
18+ is just a general one. otherwise diversity, but easier said than done. i guess it’s not weird that white young pretty thin people tend to get in touch with me when i ask for models. i am white and all that shit myself so i get if non white non thin non young people etc might not want to be a part of my white girl world. but if they feel like they can relate to it or just simply feel like trying sometime i want to let all people know that im really not looking for specific body types, more open minded people that are interested in what im doing.
Anonymous asked: In the photo of you for Blow Up Street (that you posted a few days ago) where are your shorts from? They hang so well & look super comfy
well it’s just 501 levis that i cut a sprayed purple/pink!!